Living for the church...
I just had this happen to me, and it set me back a bit.
I feel like I have a deeper want for our Lord, and a stronger relationship, and I also feel like I am alot closer to Him than before. But recently I pierced my ears, and for some reason was nervous to go to church the next Wednesday...I was worried about what others would say or think, and it hurts when a friend told me that me telling others that was bad mouthing the members of our church. I love the members of my church family, and see them as family members. Each and eery one of them. Like she said, we may not see eye to eye sometimes, but that is not any excuse to immediately talk trash. I didn't intend to bad mouth them, but looking deeper into the situation I realized I dont need to go to church and try to make them happy... I need to do things for God, and if I pray about something, and think about it hard enough to come to a satisfied conclusion, I know God should be proud.
Something I struggle wth is ALWAYS trying to please others, and going out of my way to make people happy, I never expect nor recieve anything in return, and I've become sort of a floor mat, and knowing that I had so much fear in me to not want to go to church, CHURCH, the HOUSE OF GOD!! Knowing that, was unsettling, and sadly I didnt even see it myself. I had to have a dear friend tell me. I have some major re-evaluation to do on myself, but I know that I am making God proud...
For now on, if someone else isn't approving decisions I choose to make, I will go to God, and NOT try to handle it myself, which is what I need to do with EVERYTHING!!
I'm so sorry I haven't been posting as many Journal Entries, and I really wish I had more time to do so. I've been slammed with craziness, and sometimes I just need to sit, and focus on the site, which is something I am PASSIONATE about!
Please feel free to email me with any issues, and concerns you have, and I will get back to you ASAP with an
I just had this happen to me, and it set me back a bit.
I feel like I have a deeper want for our Lord, and a stronger relationship, and I also feel like I am alot closer to Him than before. But recently I pierced my ears, and for some reason was nervous to go to church the next Wednesday...I was worried about what others would say or think, and it hurts when a friend told me that me telling others that was bad mouthing the members of our church. I love the members of my church family, and see them as family members. Each and eery one of them. Like she said, we may not see eye to eye sometimes, but that is not any excuse to immediately talk trash. I didn't intend to bad mouth them, but looking deeper into the situation I realized I dont need to go to church and try to make them happy... I need to do things for God, and if I pray about something, and think about it hard enough to come to a satisfied conclusion, I know God should be proud.
Something I struggle wth is ALWAYS trying to please others, and going out of my way to make people happy, I never expect nor recieve anything in return, and I've become sort of a floor mat, and knowing that I had so much fear in me to not want to go to church, CHURCH, the HOUSE OF GOD!! Knowing that, was unsettling, and sadly I didnt even see it myself. I had to have a dear friend tell me. I have some major re-evaluation to do on myself, but I know that I am making God proud...
For now on, if someone else isn't approving decisions I choose to make, I will go to God, and NOT try to handle it myself, which is what I need to do with EVERYTHING!!
I'm so sorry I haven't been posting as many Journal Entries, and I really wish I had more time to do so. I've been slammed with craziness, and sometimes I just need to sit, and focus on the site, which is something I am PASSIONATE about!
Please feel free to email me with any issues, and concerns you have, and I will get back to you ASAP with an
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